Waiting

It's day P+14... I very rarely make it this long after peak before AF shows.  I've had cramps for a few days now so I can't imagine any test would come back positive, but I may talk myself into taking one tomorrow morning because I've only made it this long about 3 times in my life. 

And, of course, now that I've said something, I'll start in the next hour or so :)

We're waiting for the results of another culture to see what antibiotics to go on and staying on the LDN.  I've started a list of other hypothesises... hypothesi? of course, just in case we get another cycle or 2 under our belts and are still looking for answers.

More later, just had to get this off of my chest for now.



OH!  PS: Please keep in prayer a friend running a retreat for couples who have lost children.

Random Quick Takes 7-19-2013

Not linking with Jen because this would be a weird post to stumble on.
Some things I've found out about myself...

1.  Some good old fashioned sweating exercise does wonders for anxiety.  I should do more of it!

2. The cycle saint for this cycle is St. Gemma Galgani.  Just FYI, if I got pregnant this cycle there's a very good chance I would be due on her feast day of April 11th.  Yup, I did the math :)

3. Sometimes I feel better when I haven't had enough sleep... I know, it doesn't make sense.

4. I can't look at facebook too much.  Waaaaay too many babies and bump pics.  I think I am a magnet for pregnant bellies, I see them eeeeeverywhere!

5. I've caught myself more than once having the thought of maybe I just can't handle the anxiety another baby would bring (SIDS, birth, nursing, etc.).  Those thoughts scare me, better a road less travelled.  I just have to tell myself that in all things, God will give me the grace I need when I need it.  He hasn't failed me yet.

6. Because of the anti-inflammatory diet for 5 months followed by gluten free/dairy free 2 months this year I've lost almost 20 pounds.  I'm down to the weight I was when I got my drivers' license... what, what!?  Just a little perk of being in conception-ready mode I guess.

7. If I'm not pregnant soon and have to sit in my quiet house while my little one goes to preschool I may have some kind of melt-down.  Check that, I WILL have a meltdown and start looking for a job or something to fill my time because quiet house naptimes are bad enough right now.

Feeling the love

 "When we honestly ask ourselves which [people] in our lies mean the most to us, we often find that is those who instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand.  The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair of confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."  ~Henri J. M. Nouwen

I feel like I should thank all my "Elizabeths" out there.  I mean those women who, through their prayers, blog posts, walking/play dates, conversations, chart sharings, emails, etc. have been the Elizabeth to my Mary or the Mary to my Elizabeth :)  It is such an amazing blessing to not be alone, whether or not we even share the same cross.

Thank you thank you!

This post has, no doubt, stemmed from some encounters in the last couple weeks and this post from The Road Home (READ HER BLOG!).